I have been such a bad blogger y'all!! I feel like out of my 296 readers that Google says I have, there are probably only about 2 of you still out there! And I don't blame you one bit. Honestly, ever since returning to work I have been so, so exhausted and just didn't have the energy to post anything interesting. It was a pretty difficult adjustment for me and some days it still is. But, I have been praying for a sense of peace about the whole working situation because there is no way around it right now. And I can honestly say that God was faithful and provided me with the content feeling that I prayed so hard for. Or maybe it was just that my post-pregnancy hormones died down, who knows?
So what has being a working momma been like for me, you ask? Ever since my daughter was born, I’ve fought hard to keep a good work/home balance. I use the word "balance" loosely because I feel like that indicates some kind of happy equilibrium and that is definitely what I don't have going here. At first, I worked harder than ever to avoid the mommy-track by keeping focused at work. Then at home, I tried to become “Mother of the Year” by making every meal, baking birthday cupcakes from scratch, and keeping a tidy home (alright, I utterly failed on that last one). It didn't take me long to suffer from balance burnout. I realize now that although I do have to work harder at everything I did before baby to maintain the same standard level of before baby (does that make sense?), I don't have to put so much on my plate and act like I have it together all the time. I was the only one who set unrealistic expectations for myself.
So now, although I remain focused at work, climbing the career ladder is no longer my path. I am out of there at 4:30 sharp, get in my car to head home to Gracie and my husband, and don't think about work again until I walk in the doors the next morning. As far as stuff at home goes, sometimes the laundry has to wait until tomorrow or the next day, or the NEXT day, and sometimes my husband just has to fend for himself for dinner because I am busy holding my baby (who hates to be held like a baby, more on THAT later).
So that's about all I have for now. Tomorrow (hopefully) I will do a picture post of what we have been up to the last few weeks!
Does anyone have any good tips on how to survive being a working mom, or just how to avoid the guilt??
Until then!